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i am a young, creative type of gal. i am a video editor for my local PBS station. i love harry potter and doctor who. i am left handed. i love to read and wish there were more bookstores. i say live and let live. i love my family and my friends, they are the best. my family doctor found a tumor on my ovary in august 2010. after surgery they found it was cancer. i was 29...

cancer sucks

at the end of august in 2010 i started to feel something "not right" around my stomach area. i went to my family doctor thinking it was something silly like gas pains but as soon as he felt my stomach his face changed. he sent me right away to get an ultra sound. when that came back inconclusive i was sent to get a CAT scan. when the results came back he said i had a tumor on my left ovary about the size of a pack of ramen noodles (my dad made that lovely comparison).this all happened in the span of a few hours. he believed it to be non-cancerous and sent me to an oncologist about a week or 2 later to plan my surgery. my oncologist also believed it to be non-cancerous but said it was growing. they scheduled my surgery in another 2 weeks. so after living with this growing thing inside of me i could not wait to get it out! but when i woke up from my surgery haze on september 24th my best friend aimee (who is also a nurse and was in the surgery) told me the tumor grew even more then they thought and that it was cancer. they gave me 2 weeks to recovery from my surgery and then it was off the chemo on october 11th.

fights with insurance, dealing with all of the side effects of chemo and dealing with the emotions that come along with all of that was quite exhausting to say the least. i would never wish chemo on anyone. it was the worst. food didn’t taste right, hair started coming out by the handfuls 10 days into treatment, i couldn’t concentrate on anything, and it was the most tired i have ever been in my life.

i think what i want people to know most is that just because you are young and healthy doesn’t mean nothing can happen to you. and if you are doing something that is known to cause cancer i want you to stop. don’t use the excuse “we are all going to die of something” because cancer is the worst, and diffidently NOT a good way to die if you can help it.

so if you know someone with cancer please be patient. don’t pretend nothing is happening, that doesn’t help. understand that even though they have been done with treatment for months and look healthy, they still feel side effects. don’t tell them everything is going to be fine because when it turns out not to be, they might feel like they let everyone down. just listen and understand what they are going through. make some jokes, let them fall asleep if they need to and understand that this is the most scared they have ever been in their life.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

almost 2/3 done with chemo!

originally posted on my facebook on Saturday, November 13, 2010

Hi everyone. Only 4 more weeks of chemo left. As many of you know I lost my hair about 2 weeks ago. I wasn't too upset about it since I figured it would happen. I'm still not use to it but at least i'm getting some cool hats :)
my white blood cell counts have been up and down. My 3rd week in I had critically low counts and had to wear a mask whenever I went out in public and had to get this shot in my arm that makes my bone marrow produce more white blood cells. The shots worked but they cause the worst bone pain I have ever felt in my life :( hopefully I wont have to do those again.
I keep saying that chemo is making me old. I'm bald, go to bed before 9pm and wake up at 6am and I usually take an afternoon nap. Haha.
As far as work goes we have figured out that I will be able to take my vacation so I will have the rest of the year off. By the time I would be done with chemo and all my follow up appoints it would be the start of the holidays so I will take those weeks to recoup and spend some time with my family. Then I will come back hopefully healthy and back to my normal energy levels in January.

I would also like to announce that my online design store Bloody Brilliant Apparel has added a “eff cancer” section. The profits from these designs will go to my medical bills not covered by insurance. There are buttons, stickers and keychains. And since I know some of you are too polite to say “eff cancer” I have also made a design that says “for becky” :) and if people want I will add other products (like shirts, mugs, ect). I will post the link below. And there is almost always coupon codes.
http://www.zazzle.com/bloodybrilliant/gifts?cg=196313599027922653
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